the aim of waking is to dream

living the childhood dream

2012-02-06T00:09:00.000+08:00

Today, my sister and i decided which disney princess we best represent. Here's what we've concluded.

She's Snow White, because i think the contrast of her hair and eyes on her skin. She's kind of Jasmine too(and she thinks her bf's Aladdin), but we concluded that she wants to be fair so she should be Snow White.

I think I'm Rapunzel (who's not originally from Disney) from Tangled. The short-haired, brunette version.

So well, and they all lived happily ever after.

THE END.

2012-01-30T03:26:00.002+08:00

i know this sounds silly (and willful almost) but,

i can't help but think that my life would be so different if i weren't born here.

heck, i think even i would be different.

what's with all the angst lately. geez.

i know, i know

2012-01-30T03:16:00.001+08:00

Just let me rant.

I know everyone who grew up wants to be younger, but I WANT TO JUST STAY 17 okay? please. ): okay perhaps 18, then i won't miss out on the M18 movies, but who cares about M18 movies when you have torrent? ;D

so many things i would have tried (what's the point of regretting?!) so many more i'd want to. But, i have to buy myself a few more years of youth. now, where's that fountain of youth they keep mentioning? give me a map, i'll fight my way there.

looking at young people don't help (do you think it'll help if i immerse myself in that environment?) much less having a sister 5 years younger than me. i want to be young again. i don't ask for much, just keep me at 18. let me be at 18. i'm turning 23): the sound of that irks me, and the sight of it hurts my eyes.

As depressing as it sounds, at least i'm closer to having my own home i suppose. OMG, NO. i'd rather be 18 and not have my own home.

keep me young?

2012 - Nah.

2012-01-18T00:52:00.001+08:00

i was seriously trying to get down on doing my assignment. and started googling for ideas on science experiments. pity how our teachers don't post ideas freely online and i'm left to pick among the american syllabus to modify and/or envy (cuz there are some topics i really would like to teacher e.g. space) since our syllabus don't exactly match. So anyways, i found this instead, and had a good laugh.

Teacher Phobias

Redundaphobia – the fear that, even outside of school, you will begin repeating everything 3 times to make sure others understand

Sneakasnackaphobia – the fear a student will surreptitiously eat a candy bar in your classroom and find out, quite by accident, that he has a peanut allergy

Paperpilephobia – fear that if you don’t put off all of that paperwork from the office, they’ll think you have plenty of time to do nothing but their paperwork

Coldandfluaphobia – the fear that every virus that enters your classroom is looking specifically for you

Atontogradeaphobia – the fear that every single student will turn in a project two hours before your grades are due

Chickenpattaphobia – the fear that the three-week-old chicken-patty-on-a-bun under the heat lamp in the school cafeteria will be yours on the day you forget your lunch

Budgetcutaphobia – the fear that the next published set of school budget cuts will include a photo of you

Infinitaphobia – The fear that the faculty meeting that seems endless really is

Applicaphobia – the fear that the student you’ve been urging to apply himself to his work will instead apply himself to making your life miserable for the rest of the year

Lovasubaphobia – the fear that everyone at school will like your substitute teacher more than they like you

Achapteraheadaphobia – the fear that your students will learn the material faster than you can plan the lessons

Gottagoaphobia – the fear that the coffee that keeps you alert will also keep you dancing around for the last twenty minutes of class

Adminlistaphobia – the fear that the stupid chain joke you just sent to a colleague was actually accidentally sent to every administrator in the school district

Typographophobia – the fear that the newsletter on grammar and spelling that you sent home includes a number of misspelled words and punctuation errors

Observatiophobia – the fear that you’ll discover in the middle of your administrator-observed class that you’ve planned a twenty-minute lesson for an eighty-minute class

Desksquishaphobia – The fear that the student desks that are migrating closer to the front of the classroom every day will eventually crush you against the whiteboard (though the opposite seems more likely to happen here.)

Theyllbebackaphobia - the fear that the worst behaved kids will be the ones that won't pass to the next grade.

the woes of being a teacher. HAHA! Gonna have it printed out and stuck to my desk someday. Its good to have a term for each 'phobia'. LOL. My fav? observatiophobia. PRACTICUM IN 5 WEEKS. no, actually, after this, FOUR. 0.o

mindlessness

2011-12-07T01:47:00.000+08:00

i realised that i've neglected this dusty spot in the world wide web. hello WWWebers. i guess that's good in a way, meaning i'm actually busy in my actual non virtual life. i like that.

on a totally random note, i had a fan dream today. and that left me waking up in awe. in my dreams. IN MY DREAMS i repeat. but it was so good. if i wasn't already late, i would have slept on.

Speaking of which, my brains have been all over the place recently. GOODNESS ME. i am so pissed with my goldfish memory. i think i need a brain upgrade. or maybe an effort upgrade? eitherways, let today be a lesson to me, missing my lesson and forgetting to call up to book my physio appointment. i literally loathe my mindlessness through the core of my brains. argh. its bloody annoying. especially in times like NOW, and also, those when you're trying to recall something and its at the tip of your tongue/ top of your brain, you can remember, but not quite moments. sucks)): i'm disgusted with myself for that.

on a lighter note, i baked. YES! i did! 2 bread and some recipe-less cookie.

and the thing is, ME, the non iphone fan (nothing against it, just never thought of owning one) got an iphone4gS, from the bf! its limited edition too. Can you believe it? hahaha =D let me put some pictures in.

Isn't it awesome? got to hand it to him when it comes to hand made cards. <3

so enough gloating, i shall end the post off with a resolution:

Organise activities by writing them down in my schedule book.

hearts

2011-12-01T02:03:00.000+08:00

heart and soul.

please don't waver, dreams are weaving.

i can't change my stand!

the thing is, the more i see it, the further i feel i'm away from it.

start dreaming

2011-11-06T01:37:00.000+08:00

with 2 more weeks till the end of this semester,

here's what i've got to accomplish:

2 individual essays
1 lesson plan
1 scheme of work
1 group essay + compilation of every awesome lesson plans and scheme of work
exam

here's what i'm thinking about:

what i'm going to do this holiday

I think we can all agree that there's a problem.

i wonder where all the focus i used to have has gone, and why is it not coming back. do we get ADHD as we grow older? or is it just a procrastination thing?

impressions

2011-11-01T00:10:00.000+08:00

took a peek, i think i semi guess-judged. i think it'll take some time to learn acceptance without judgement (i am afterall only human), funny how i care so much about something that doesn't concern me, or maybe it does, slightly.

Family ties, blood's thicker than water

NOMs.

2011-10-24T20:55:00.001+08:00

When I'm all stressed out like that, I start my junk food binge.

This is seriously BAD.

But, I can't stop. I need intervention. =\

p/s: as i type, the chicken nuggets are toasting in the oven. *drools*

everytime

2011-10-23T02:09:00.002+08:00

i disappoint myself a little more. damn.

HUNGRY

2011-10-19T23:43:00.000+08:00

i'm so hungry, but my stomach is so unsettled that whatever i eat wants to make its way out through my mouth):

and chef John isn't helping!

Chef John! i'm so mad at you! why are you so awesomeeee??!!??!!

so wonderful, melancholy

2011-10-15T01:57:00.001+08:00

I hope she wins. <3

how could she not?

Hello frienemy.

2011-10-14T03:50:00.002+08:00

Shit happens.

This is what i MUST do

2011-10-11T01:51:00.000+08:00

I should have done this before my assignments were due.

I SHOULD HAVE.

sometimes.

2011-10-04T01:25:00.000+08:00

the night always brings some sort of nostalgia for me. especially when it gets real quiet, and i sit alone, listening to all the songs on my playlist. it's one of those times where words are not enough to describe all the emotions that overcome you in the span of a song, and how many things hit you and how deep your mind goes into that memory pool of yours and its like your life is on auto playback. you know those movies where they show people's lives flash before their eyes before they die? well its something like that, but no i'm not dying. and then i sit in bed feeling exhausted. because of all the thoughts. good ones, bad ones, things we wished hadn't happen, thing we wish would happen differently. it's all there, 22 years of my life, consolidated in my playlist, and whatever atmosphere that the night brings. it's just, different.

do you help?

2011-10-02T16:42:00.000+08:00

are you grateful?

bright lights shine

2011-10-02T00:26:00.000+08:00

when i grow up and move out, i'm taking the christmas tree with me.

Credits: Naomi Davis.

supercalifragilisticexpialidocious.

2011-09-17T16:59:00.000+08:00

what would you have done if you knew what you knew today?

what would you be?

i don't wonder because i know.

and sometimes, i become unhappy because i do.

tick tock mr clock

2011-09-16T02:31:00.000+08:00

time of the year, procrastination sets in. GUILTY, GUILTY, GUILTY.

the world is not made for fickles.

2011-09-12T01:16:00.000+08:00

can you pick?

i can't.

fickle minded people think a lot.

we go like, maybe i should take it out now, nah, maybe later, it might be nicer a little toasted, but what if it burns, let's take it out now, but it might not be toasted enough, should i take it out now? should i leave it in? should i take it out? and sometimes, the toast finally burns.

and how true this is.

so, i conclude that unless the world is all the same, fickle minded people will never fit right in.

2011-09-06T00:18:00.000+08:00

Here's a someone who wants to diminish the recognition of her wild side while keeping her wild side alive.

and there's the other who wishes to be recognised for her wild side, yet never found her voice to do so.

2 very different people, yet they're both the same.

Suddenly, we're not all that different are we?

things we dream about

2011-09-05T02:30:00.001+08:00

sometimes i think my brain tries to screw me up really bad. -.-

today i found out that what i think wasn't what really existed. i think i'm kind of insane.

still, i'm disappointed. tsk.

On a side note, if you would bother, please do click on the ads for me! i just realised that i'm on google's adsense. means i get to earn money if you click on them or something. i didn't know that!!!! =\ Thanks in advance!

fun!

2011-09-02T03:03:00.000+08:00

I'm having so much fun with apps these days, i forgot how life was before technology. Damn. i must be getting younger. =D

okay, back to work.

Ignacio Torres' Cosmic Birth

2011-08-31T22:38:00.000+08:00

have you ever thought of GIFs quite this way?

It's more than just your usual tumblr GIFs.

think.

itchy hands, feet, butt and what?

2011-08-29T00:07:00.000+08:00

i've got to stop my urge to start youtubing ( i love how its a verb now) swan lake on ice by imperial ice stars. its in a week's time and I HONESTLY CANNOT WAIT to watch it. OMG. which brings me to the issue of my itchy hands, and feet, wanting to go back on the ice. argh, you can't blame me cuz i've stopped for like what, 8 years? I have suppressed the urge for that long. =(

so how does one curb the urge? by watching another.

Giselle is one of the few ballet classics i know of, and in this, she depicts the madness of Giselle after some unfortunate event, you know, broken heart yada yada. i think its amazing. not to mention, its by Kim Yuna. all time favourite. grace, beauty, heart, strength. all in one.

I remember this tune from when i had this Richard Clayderman's simplified music score and could play it on the piano, and of course some CD playing in my dad's car. But Johnny Weir is excellent at such emotive stuffs, there's really no argument to this. (even though my sister and i think that his body proportions are a little odd.) but still, HUGE fan, HUGE FAN. =D

here's my sister's absolute fav. I think the essence of him is captured in that hair (and of course his spins, but still, the hair has a life of its own). He should be the ambassador of some hair product. charming nonetheless. ((:

and of course, finally, Michelle Kwan. who hasn't heard of her? go ahead, slap yourself if you haven't. she's the inspiration, the start of it all, the mother of all queens. get it? that's her magnificence.

granted, she isn't as graceful as some others, but when she skates, she exudes so much joy and love for what she's doing, its contagious. if you haven't felt it, you have no heart. it's not in the smile, its in her movement. she was the start of it all.

these are the people, who make magic, and of course harry potter and gang. but outside nine and three quarters, these are the people.

if you would please.

2011-08-15T00:11:00.001+08:00

Do me a favour, light the path for me, any way would do. it's better than being stranded.

Oh i'm so swelled up with wisdom!

2011-07-31T23:13:00.001+08:00

WISDOM TOOTH/TEETH that is.

horror of all horrors. they're impacted. wheeee...

extraction's on thursday, and i'm not really sure if i should be looking forward to it or not.

anyways, i guess i should look forward to it since i won't enjoy being a puffball all the time.

Yes, i am a puffball now. my left cheek resembles a stuffed up cheek pouch of a hamster.

okay, i've exaggerated but my gum is swollen and i can't really close my mouth much, so yes, my cheek is slightly puffed up and heated. i feel like the left side of my face has fever of some sort.

Oh and i think that's not really the bad part yet, i CAN'T eat solid food cuz i can't chew. so i think i'll be on some sort of liquid diet (unwillingly) for the next 1 and a half weeks, judging from how long my sister took to recover from that.

oh how i miss solid food (its only been a day, and my teeth isn't gg to be extracted till thursday, today is sunday btw) i feel like having fries NOW.

On the bright side, i now have an excuse to eat tons of ice cream! i think i'll head straight to the supermarket to get tubs of vanilla ice cream, Häagen-Dazs no less, after my tooth extraction. I WILL GET IT, even if i have a freaking bloody gauze in my mouth and i look unsightly.

I guess i'll be returning to school as an anti social person, since i won't be able to talk very much, or smile as a matter of fact. ewww, stitches.

oh wells. hole in my mouth, hole in my pocket.

we all need this. I had this, I miss this.

2011-07-17T16:23:00.001+08:00

Let Go

Laying in the green grass
in an open atmosphere
staring at the blue sky
with everything so clear
with no one next to me
I got nowhere else to be,
But right here

In a busy world
sometimes we forget to breathe
trapped inside the daily grind
and thats all there seems to be
Oh but theres more to it than that
take your time to just relax
and feel the breeze

Oh, Oh, Oh, just let go
Oh, Oh, Oh, just let go

Thinking about nothing
a moment just for me
like the clouds up in the air
a sacred kind of peace
I gotta unwind myself
close my eyes and just breathe

Oh, Oh, Oh, just let go
Oh, Oh, Oh, just let go

Tomorrow can wait for me
Tomorrow can wait for me

Oh, Oh, Oh, just let go
Oh, Oh, Oh, just let go

I can't wait to be back where I'm liberated again.

the calm front and the inner war

2011-07-09T12:35:00.000+08:00

do you get it?

when you get what you want, but not what you need.

2011-07-04T01:55:00.000+08:00

people can be so clueless sometimes, it destroy all hopes and expectations of others.

crumble, just like that. or maybe we should expect a little less, so we live a little happier.

let it go. but if we do, will we be taken for granted again?

gaaaahhh.

why is a little balance so difficult to find around here?

2011-07-01T21:59:00.000+08:00

now, that's motivation to bathe more often =D

of course, only she could come up with ideas like these!

now that practicum is here, and we're churning out lesson plans like machines, i really needed ideas to be flowing like the Niagara Falls.

we need more people like her in this world.

a million to one.

2011-06-30T00:42:00.000+08:00

school's officially started. and i've been trying my best to morph into a lesson plan churning machine, friendly yet firm teacher and ideas generator all at once. this is a lot to do in a week. and in the next 5 weeks i will be everything i'm expected to be because no one expects any less. practicality is so important now, and execution is key. think quick on my feet, develop some form classroom management and bond. feels like so much is weighing on all of us.

thankfully, kids always have the darnest things to say.

i love my dog.

2011-06-26T02:54:00.000+08:00

see that waggy-tail there? I LOVE HIM :D

that's all(:

coming undone

2011-06-22T02:45:00.000+08:00

oh gosh, the many weeks of not even moving much has given me a really crumbly and rumbly tummy. i'm not even kidding, cuz my stomach literally growls from gas. yes gas, stand far away if you like. and of course, i'm about 2 tummy sizes up. why must food be so delicious! well, some eat to live and some live to eat, so go figure.

so anyhoo, i'm a complete slob now and practicum is next week, how am i going to cope!! my doc says i best not write on the white board because he instructed specifically "no overhead activities". and no kidding, i'm such a slob, i missed my physio session today. and guess what? after 3 weeks of not stretching my arms up, i'm less flexible! MY RIGHT FREAKING ARM!! ))): seriously, i need to get my act together. this is really unbelievable.

on a random note though, so is this:

unbelievably fun don't you reckon?

i think boring electrical boxes should be at the mercy of artists, because they are so awesome.

so on a brighter note, since its already been 3 weeks, i'm hoping that 3 months will pass and i will be granted the permission to go back to doing whatever little exercise i actually did in the past that keeps my appetite at bay. seriously, all these eating is stressing out my gastric i think, i really think so. indigestion. so gassy, so horrifying, i think i may start getting heart burns soon.

i believe at the beginning of it all, my goal was to join the competition in december, i hope my arm recovers in time. just when i thought i was making progress. seriously. -.-

can you believe its almost over? whatever happened to my endless holidays?

grace and beauty

2011-06-10T03:50:00.001+08:00

there aren't many people in the world who possess grace, strength, beauty and wealth but stay humble and real. everytime i watch this, i feel the same sense of awe and respect. how many athletes have donated all of their olympic winnings to charity?

amazing.

it was all fun and games.

2011-06-03T02:06:00.001+08:00

been away for awhile, really didn't feel like getting down to using the com much. until, i popped my right shoulder, and have to sit at home feeling handicapped and bored all day long. and no there's not going to be a photo of me in a sling. its depressing trust me. anyways, the holidays' been great. (: went on my long awaited vacation, and literally grew into a slob. but, its the hols, we can all pig out if we want. heh! so well here's to me still being alive and the myriad of firsts i experienced this holiday.

1. first time on a cruise

2. first time in thailand

3. first time travelling with zw

4. first time popping my shoulders (don't like the word dislocate)

5. first time on a jet ski

6. first time going under GA (was traumatising)

7. first time on a ambulance

8. first time in A&E (realised that there was no sense of urgency there, unless perhaps you're foaming in your mouth or something i suppose)

9. first time landing my loop!

10. first time making a list of firsts (i just wanted 10 firsts.)

okay well, i'm off to recuperate!

semicolon and brackets :))))

2011-05-06T16:23:00.000+08:00

so, i think i've found my life back. less time on the internet = more time in real life. =D

anyways its been excellent these days(: BUSY. the kind of busy-ness that is enjoyable (not the slog-your-life-away-on-studying type.) =D

way back when,

2011-04-27T02:03:00.000+08:00

way back when the frenzied panics were about what to bring

way back when the worries were not seeing each other

way back when the fear was living apart.

way back when the confusions were about directions and how to get home.

way back when the school cafeteria was about being spoiled for choices

way back when the weather forecast went all wrong

way back when the homework was not priority

way back when the chatters were about where to go and which parties to attend

way back when the maps were all we relied on

way back when the friends were the only company needed.

way back when the source of our pride was the world's hottest sausage.

way back when the booze was almost free.

way back when the only care in the world was enjoying today

way back when the happiness came from cheap gummybears

way back when the weather was too cold for ice cream but we had it anyway

way back when the excitement came from a brownie and some mushrooms

way back when the disappointment came from stinky attitudes of some Ps.

way back when the summer felt like winter, but our hearts were warm

way back when the fields of gold had no end

way back the it felt just right to be sitting at the dining table watching the sun set.

would you bring me way back when?

FIN.

2011-04-22T15:46:00.000+08:00

i said goodbye to my third year today. it didn't end with a bang.

on the bright side, it's hello to my sorely missed freedom, and phone.

i actually felt handicapped without it for quite some time! now that its back and upgraded, i'm in love all over again. *sighs* how can a phone be that smart? (:
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was gonna blog yesterday, but i fell asleep. can't believe i'm that exhausted. woke up still feeling tired. can't believe myself. on the bright side, today's good cuz today's good friday, and i get to spend the day catching up with all the awesome shows i'm missing.
ahhh.. the life of a free bird. (;
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OWENS, here's what he has with breakfast.

poor guy. but at least it made him better.

urgh

2011-04-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

you want to know what?

THIS is what.

heatwave

2011-04-20T01:51:00.000+08:00

i sense summer. its so near, i can almost feel the sun.

what am i still doing here?

(this is not literal-literal.)

all at the same time, exam is still looming):

help. i need to get off the internet don't i?

2011-04-17T23:37:00.001+08:00

This cracked me up so hard.

"I have 2 golden retrievers and 3 cats"

LOL. WTH.

seems like the ministry has finally employed someone with a sense of humour. just look at the illustrations.

DEVASTATION --> sledgehammers the computer. ROFL!

analysis.

2011-04-17T22:59:00.000+08:00

this is what i want to do to people who over analyse things.

people love to over analyse.

this is why we have so much misunderstanding and misinterpretation.

sometimes, it just says what it says.

stop over analyzing and thinking that it has something embedded in it okay?

tyvm.

looking for these.

2011-04-17T00:55:00.000+08:00

Honestly, which of these have you ever thought about? (;

Large ice cream cookies

combine your dip with a drink of the same awesome flavour all in one.

i wish they'd do a peanut butter one, yes, i wouldn't mind drinking peanut butter.

i've seen plenty of gelatos placed this way but never solid popsicles.

i will go to bed early everyday/night.

inverse pool.

bake a cookie in a cookie.

that's like cookie inception. Ha!

INGENIOUS-ness is never overstated. =D

now, back to the studying(:

dinosaurs and sorts

2011-04-16T02:34:00.000+08:00

nikon took a photo of grandpa pentax, how loving.

i love my nikon, though its not a DSLR or anything like that, but guess what. i found his predecessor!!! my storeroom is a treasure chest definately worth exploring. =D

i'm a total noob at photography, basically i know nothing much more than a snail does about racing.

BUT,

i can't wait to get it fixed and play around with it!

btw, finders keepers. ha!

Finally, here's sleepy owens. he's due for his blood test (again) tomorrow. let's hope that all goes well. he's been a real soldier(:

2011-04-11T13:03:00.001+08:00

hi, you.

so the blog fell into comatose again.

last week, i vaguely remembered asking to be left in the pressure cooker under the presumption of "people working best under pressure". well okay. that was dumb, and a complete fallacy.

last week was hell.

it was mental torture.

owens was diagnosed with canine thrombocytopenia. simply put, his immune system started attacking his platelets.

since i presume, if my biology lessons during secondary school didn't fail me, platelets are responsible for the clotting of blood, his blood couldn't clot, and he started bleeding from his gums for some reason. bleeding to death is slow and agonizing, i'm sure. ):

when we sent him to the hospital, he was still jumpy and crazy and barking all over (bleeding too). but the day after he was admitted, he was dull and he could barely stand up to greet us): it was honestly the most heart breaking sight EVER. because i promise you, anyone who's met him knows for sure that he's a rambunctious ball of energy that hardly ever slows down. (even the doctors and vet techs who's barely met him for a day knew)

that glutton of a boy didn't even want to eat his chicken or yummy canned food, which was usually wolfed down in seconds.

day after day, if i couldn't get to the hospital, i would call, and the results of his daily blood test wasn't good. one night he had blood in his diarrhoea, which indicated internal/intestinal bleeding so, now not only his platelet count is low, his red blood count dipped too. he wasn't responding his medication and he wasn't eating, and had to be force fed.):

Finally, the senior vet said, "let's give him 3 more days, if he doesn't respond, you can choose to do a bone marrow biopsy." note: bone marrow biopsy is invasive, and it requires the vet to drill a hole in his bone. and it requires him to be be cut up hence bleeding. which is risky when his platelet and blood count is low.. argh. when i heard it, i almost died. but that's when the vet continued, "and if it shows that his bone marrow isn't capable of functioning anymore, he'll have to be put to sleep."

put to sleep.

these 3 words got me choked on everything that could ever choke on. tears, saliva, my own breath. how can i ever make that decision?

who the hell could anyway. that was the worst night ever. EVER. i felt like dying too )':

okay, but thankfully, like the fighter he was, he got better. he's discharged now, but due for a follow up in the hospital today. he lost weight, we can feel his ribs and bones. and he's still on medication and he still isn't really back to his usual self yet, but thank goodness, he's home. (:

So, yesterday, the beez had our 4th match of the season, in our new kit, and we didn't lose! hahaha =D that was exciting. like FINALLY. though sengkang stadium is kind of a god forsaken place they have this really pretty board walk thing that serves as a park connector, YET, it rained so heavily yesterday I couldn't really explore it since it stopped just before our match, so sara and i only got a few fun shots. LOL.

okay break's over, back to lesson planning(:

wonderful disillusions

2011-03-30T01:24:00.000+08:00

Things like these make me feel like jumping into the water fountain in the middle of nowhere. what a wonderful not-so-reality.

A sweet french cliché from Fanny Latour-Lambert on Vimeo.

okay, back to reality.

odd.

2011-03-28T03:57:00.001+08:00

this is my neighbourhood at night.
i have an unexplainable love for bokeh-ed lights. lights only.

i've been having really unexplainable odd dreams lately.
i've been feeling this constant hunger.
i eat an orange everyday. (i never liked oranges, or the hassle of peeling them)
i've had far too much junk food.
i keep falling asleep on the sofa.
its bloody warm

can somebody tell me why?

heeelllllppppp!!!!!!

2011-03-18T01:48:00.000+08:00

It doesn't matter what I'm not.

HERE's WHAT I AM

Capiche????

disconnected

2011-03-16T12:06:00.000+08:00

my phone!!! nooooooooooooooooo........

i am now stuck with the old nokia.

such is the life of mine.

haha.

an open mind

2011-03-16T03:44:00.000+08:00

Chips and dips have nothing to do with what i'm about to say but, i'm hungry okay.

I found a website that i love.

thought everyone should know about it. everyone who loves colours should i suppose.

and it came with tons of love from strangers(:

weightlessness, just like how dreams are

2011-03-15T00:52:00.000+08:00

Kurz und Schön opener from errorone on Vimeo.

how awesome's this.

dreaming out loud (or not)

2011-03-14T20:50:00.002+08:00

I've sinned.

HAHA, IT fairs never go well with me. there always seem to be a broken piece of electronic lying somewhere in my inventory of broken electronics that i "have" to replace. This time, it's my Sony point and shoot. HEH. =D (actually i've got more...)

REGARDLESS! i've gotten myself another point and shoot, with a little more flexibility (DSLRs don't fare well under my nooby-ness). and i'm loving it! (so does my mum, dad & sis) we've been playing with it the whole of yesterday.

proof.

Plus, it came with a huge tripod stand, my mum says we've got to have a family portrait taken.

I'm so loving the ZOOM! 36 times optical zoom is as good as it gets, i feel like a total spy! watch out, i might peep into your house... *cues evil laughter*

from the tenth storey to the first. ZOOOOOOM!!!

i spy with my 36X zoom!

it was raining the whole day, so i took the chance to test the shutter speed, and it worked!!

do you see what i see??? raindrops!! (the noob in me was amazed.)

and of course, the victim of our (the sister and me) excitement was Owens. i don't know if its a common understanding between animals but they don't seem to like facing the camera a lot. so it took a lot of coaxing and bribery to get him to face the camera. thus, there're tons of spy shots of him.

*sureying the scene*

ooh, what's that!

let me poke my head out for a better view!

Honestly, sometimes i wonder what owens dreams about.. when he lies on his chair, which he forcefully claimed ownership of by drooling on it, he stares into space and falls asleep. Sometimes, his little paws would move, and he'd snore. YES he snores.

and when he's not dreaming, this is another familiar sight.

yes, we love you owens.

anyways, now that there's a hole in my pocket, i hope the photos that i keep will make up for it(:

the com will soon be dead. give me a CR-48!!

2011-03-09T02:01:00.001+08:00

its all about the clouds now. And since the sky is the limit, i want a piece of your pie google. i want the CR-48.

isn't this just the awesomest?? no more crash scares. plus, since they have this added security thingy called "sandboxing" no more malwares =DDD gotta love google for taking over the world. i mean, just look at how minimalistic the laptop is, not even a logo. totally customizable - or not. ((:

i'd like that please (:

2011-02-24T02:22:00.000+08:00

What if facebook becomes a book?

When Facebook becomes a book from Siavosh Zabeti on Vimeo.

in time of daffodils.

2011-02-22T21:49:00.001+08:00

This is my favourite poem:

in time of daffodils(who know
the goal of living is to grow)
forgetting why,remember how

in time of lilacs who proclaim
the aim of waking is to dream,
remember so(forgetting seem)

in time of roses(who amaze
our now and here with paradise)
forgetting if,remember yes

in time of all sweet things beyond
whatever mind may comprehend,
remember seek(forgetting find)

and in a mystery to be
(when time from time shall set us free)
forgetting me,remember me

- e.e. cummings

I know i've mentioned it a couple of times before, but its too good to ignore, and how's a few more mentions going hurt anyone? (: i want more interpretations of it though. so far, i haven't read anything from the internet that is thought provoking enough, because all people do is say the same thing over and over again, and quoting the bible. i mean come on, if i wanted to know what the bible says (no offence) i'll read it myself. i want to know what YOU think! (:

if everyone thought like that (:

2011-02-21T05:00:00.000+08:00

This is Dulux's Let's Colour Project.

This is German designer Siren Elise Wilhelmsen's knitting clock displayed at the DMY international design festival 2010. It knits a 2 metre long scarf each year, just in time for christmas don't you think?

more awesomeness

This is 'Write a bike' by Juri Zaech.

show your appreciation!

The bottle bank arcade, making recycling more fun. i love the fun theory.

Brock Davis creates something new everyday (2009), here.

Finally, someone thinks about car faces too. By Kyle Bean.

This is when both visual and aural learners are satisfied.

This is where you get to listen to everything In Bb major.

If we all thought a little further, life would be more FUN.

all the right things.

2011-02-19T02:32:00.000+08:00

i kinda miss the past. that's all. maybe that's why i'm a history person.

music & feelings i've never had

2011-02-18T02:03:00.000+08:00

If only someone taught me to understand music like that when i was young, perhaps i'd have more interest in playing the piano, and better understand the international language of music. This teacher is amazing. and so are cellos.

and this is epic classical rock. i'm begining to fall in love with the cello.

i'm a PRO(crastinator).

2011-02-16T03:20:00.001+08:00

i can't seem to get my engines running. =\

to all fellow procrastinators, procrastinate by watching this (because you know you want to, because you know you need to procrastinate.)

Procrastination from Johnny Kelly on Vimeo.

i brought home some wonderful trouble(;

2011-02-15T03:03:00.000+08:00

5 years ago, while he was searching for me in the midst everyone, I was elsewhere bringing home something wonderfully troublesome. Today, we're in trouble and loving it.

Meet Owens(:

Happy Valentine's Day!

a dismissible amount in fraction and decimal

2011-02-13T01:52:00.000+08:00

looking around, we're just one of the billions of people in this world.

and you start to wonder what gave them the rights to sell us all, like we're so exclusive when the truth is, we're all the same.

another stage.

2011-02-09T03:12:00.000+08:00

with all that past, i think its time for change, don't you?

ah, i feel it coming in with the midnight tide, rise high, i want to ride with it.

transition.

2011-02-07T02:30:00.000+08:00

This CNY seems to complete my transition into 2011. It's made my brains accept the fact that 2011 is really, finally here! how weird. I think its the goodies.

They create miracles!

Let's all toast to the goodness of bak kwa =D

p/s: i stepped into PUMA today, and stupid bieber's song is still stuck in my head. He doesn't deserve a capital 'b', since he's so eenie meenie. please make up your mind mind mind mind mind!! GAAAAHHHH!! >:(

T9s and autocorrect

2011-02-02T22:54:00.000+08:00

Happy CNY guys(:

consider this

2011-02-02T15:25:00.000+08:00

obligations are pressurizing, they are annoying, no one likes them.

but,

its only an obligation when it isn't done willingly.

enough said.

best saturday so far(;

2011-01-30T04:04:00.000+08:00

mac and cheese lunch and our first saturday in a loooooong time

and we caught up, FINALLY, till we were drenched in the rain.

so despite the crappy bug i've seem to caught, this was the best saturday i've had in a long time(:

i love you people.

to be human,

2011-01-29T02:23:00.000+08:00

is so beyond me.

i'm convinced!

2011-01-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

this saved my life, countless times. i wonder what's the secret herbal mix!

meh.

2011-01-26T02:23:00.000+08:00

i'm thinking, i love the cool rainy season, but the mosquitoes aren't really the best part of the package. not especially if they bite you at all the wrong places, like places you can't really scratch/reach. gaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!!

the itch is making me want to roll around on a huge piece of sandpaper.

I hope you see my point.

sometimes, my bubble does wonders.

2011-01-25T00:47:00.000+08:00

Today i decided that i won't care if i'm weird, looked weird or acted weird, as long as i stop feeling horribly weird. so i took a long bus ride. then alighted, walked to my destination, lay down a mat on the grass, plopped myself on it, took out my readings and started making myself feel at home. LOL! and for the first time in a long time, i felt absolutely liberated. i don't know why but who cares.

p/s: this is how we watch tv together

i guess the we shouldn't conform too much to the "dos" and "don'ts" and just lie however we want and wherever we want to (;

I think I woke up tonight.

2011-01-23T03:28:00.002+08:00

i was hit by the sudden revelation of OMG-i-know-what-i-want-to-do!!!

Yes, i am aware that i have a bond to keep, and i have no intentions of breaking it. but i know what i want to do after that (and it is related). so what's this mysterious revelation/thought thingy? well, i can't quite put the thoughts into words yet. but i'm sure i'll figure that out someday. right now, i just have a gut feeling that this is it. unless i'm blinded by some rash and irrational daydream. but i doubt so. i just hope that i'll keep that in me, and fuel it as i go along(:

till then, i'm cool with now.

on a side note i realised today, that the sentence "I am me" actually make complete sense and that its really amazing how one person can take the position of the subject and object in the same sentence (don't know if it amazes anyone else but whatever). ok bye!

sold my soul to space.

2011-01-21T16:15:00.000+08:00

i'm looking for space. has anyone seen one bigger than the internet?

cuz cyber seems to be all the space we have left. what happened to all the ones that we're allowed into alone, without a password? we like to be developed. but sometimes, i feel the concrete engulf me, the colours too artificial and the air no longer crisp. i think we all need some real breathing space, for sanity's sake.

i'm having dreams for breakfast

2011-01-19T04:11:00.000+08:00

i've just come to terms with school. (i think) at least the timetable is okay this semester(: results were out today. its kinda expected, judging from the horrors of last semester.. but its nothing this semester can't cure (and a ton of gummy bears). speaking of which, i think i have to run off the sugars before they store. oh wait, they already did =\ so anyways, life's pretty charming right now. not exactly wonderful, but good enough i guess. i think its the amount of me time i'm having. which is pretty awesome (think daydreaming) and yeah. make up ridic plans in my brains and smile about it senselessly, don't judge. well, its going to happen. it just has to. so anyways, cheerios(:

the only constant, period.

2011-01-10T04:09:00.000+08:00

isn't it scary how we have the power to change the world?

listing

2011-01-06T02:49:00.000+08:00

I'm not a list-er.

I can't work with lists. But since my memory isn't exactly top notch, I force myself to list. Resolutions come in lists don't they? 'made a list but, it just doesn't feel like 2011 yet. Maybe The year doesn't Start because school hasn't. what an awful thought. :( school Starts 5 in days.somehow, i'm looking forward to it, in a weird way. still can't get over my dead spacebar, & thank you for bamboo. (:

nothing's changed.

2010-12-30T04:17:00.000+08:00

procrastination kills me. but today, it feels fatal.

but nothing's changed. i'm still left with that downtime that i can't seem to get away from. i killed my spacebar, its kinda hard to type now. shan't type much. words aren't worth much anyways. but i wish someone would make me stay.

Bamboo

2010-12-28T04:17:00.000+08:00

not the ones pandas eat.

I'm in love with my Christmas present!

thank you thank you thank you thank you!!

I've been "drawing" (tracing) portraits and they are so much fun! :D

I'm even writing this post with it.

YAY FOR BAMBOO!!

2010-12-27T04:36:00.000+08:00

perfection is haunting. i'm glad i'm not a seeker of it. not a fan, not even close.

have you caught black swan? loved it(:

christmas is OVER, and the new year is coming, i don't like the thought of it but we're still growing, older.

either ways, its good to have a fresh start again. this time, i'm really writing resolutions. (don't judge me, okay never mind, go ahead, judge me)

people work best under pressure, no?

happy holidays!

E _ _ T _ .

2010-12-18T03:59:00.000+08:00

i can't help but feel like something's missing.

so we go on and on on this merry go round.

=D

2010-12-15T22:50:00.000+08:00

do you see the light??? =DDD

chocolates melt too easily. don't like working with them. not in this heat. :(

on the brighter note, EXAMS ARE OVER!! =DDDD which means that the WORST semester EVER is dead and GONE =DDD i'm going into smiley overload because this semester SUCKED. its the most DISGUSTING one ever, that it deserves some donkey balls. i'm serious. but its O-V-E-R! =DDD take that ass-of-a-semester! xDD

so, bring on the holidays =DD

so world, what's new?

2010-12-12T21:31:00.003+08:00

okay, so apparently, I can't attach an image from the phone. we learn something new everyday don't we? so anyways, about half the world is partying away, and here I am still buried under the dictionary. you know what the weird thing is though? I don't seem to care. =\ is that good or?

fast food and other fast things

2010-12-11T01:31:00.000+08:00

advancement and technology seems to breed impatience don't you think? if our computer takes like more than 15 secs to load a page, we'd be flipping mad, cursing and swearing under our breath. blaming the service providers, blaming our modem, blaming the PC, blaming everything we can possibly blame.

this is probably why fast food joints are surviving so well. and why people love instant things. like instant photos, instant noodles, instant messaging, instant everything.. we focus on efficiency so that we can produce more in lesser time. everything is fast fast fast. sometimes, quality can be a hoax. because it seems impossible without patience and time, that something produced at such speed can be any good. well we can argue that efficiency doesn't mean that quality is compromised, but i shall leave that for another day.

today, my conclusion is that people are addicted to instant gratification that we forget that sometimes patience produce better result.

wow.

2010-12-10T01:19:00.000+08:00

If this is true, who am I to complain?

when i was younger

2010-12-09T01:17:00.000+08:00

i wish my parents had allowed me to take ballet. but i skated, for a while, and it was good. someday, i just wish that i can skate to this.

Thought of You from Ryan J Woodward on Vimeo.

so wonderful(:

totally random: PRECISION.

2010-12-06T22:04:00.000+08:00

i mean, see the desperation???

I just found out how freaking difficult it is to take a dump in space. the astronaut literally has to suction his butt to the toilet seat, and aim his you know, hole at the really tiny toilet opening or risk making a huuuggee mess. I'm serious about this. they even have a camera and light in the toilet bowl, attached to a screen right in front of the toilet seat just so the astronaut can check if his/her aiming is just right. LIKE WTH. precision everything. even taking a dump. how awesome is it if you have like this huge ass of a stomach ache, and you really feel diarrhoea coming up, but you're in space. GOOD GAME.

so why am i talking about astronauts shitting in space when i'm supposed to be focused in phonetics?

beats me.

lazy afternoons

2010-12-05T16:10:00.000+08:00

the only time when you feel so alone, with a million people sitting around you.

just realised that all my papers (except ASK301) are at noon.

so dreading noon papers.

Oops.

2010-12-05T00:43:00.000+08:00

i screwed up my old blog template while trying to remove the song that's been annoying me. didn't have time to fix it. but its okay. i guess blogger has improved(: this new template works just as well till i find time to fix the old one i guess(: accidental discoveries rock, like the microwaves, penicillin, teflon, potato chips, post its etc... you get my point(:

ginger bread men (:

2010-12-05T00:12:00.000+08:00

i don't know if the studying is getting to me, or the fact that everyone else are already having their holidays, but i'm definitely feeling christmassy(: i want to bake gingerbread cookies! come on exams, end soon please? i want to join the festivities!

plastic.

2010-12-04T01:45:00.000+08:00

it feels kinda fake.

need i say more? =\

w o r d s .

2010-12-03T01:02:00.001+08:00

sometimes, i wish i have Shakespeare's ability to describe every little thing. because there're tons of things that i can't seem to quantify in words. and i feel like there's a need for me to write it all down somewhere because my memory always fails me, and these things are important to me. how do i do this?

my words fail me, every time.

You're excused.

2010-11-30T02:44:00.000+08:00

I see now.

So, apparently, we're not the only ones. okay then fine.

Mistakes must never be made twice. It won't happen again (and i won't even say next time, cuz there won't be a NEXT, TIME). I mean, when no one forced you at gun point, you can't really complain, can you? When you walk in front of everyone you're claiming the lead already, aren't you? When you refuse help and take on the load, you'll be alone, won't you? So, who does one have to blame? Right.

Yourself.

*applauds*

Now that you're enlightened, stop feeling sorry for yourself.

thank you very much.

t h r e e .

2010-11-29T03:32:00.000+08:00

we're officially 3.

how wonderful(: you know, they say there'll be ups and downs, but i think we've been through the most extreme ups and downs of all this year. but no matter what, i'm glad we went through it together(:

much loves(:

in the air.

2010-11-24T22:39:00.000+08:00

hmm, you know what?

policy revisions, security clamp downs, bonuses for civil servants (seriously, don't you think that the word 'servant' bears negative connotations?)

I smell, elections coming right up.

so that's how it is now?

2010-11-22T00:05:00.000+08:00

these days, it seems my entire family only seem to talk to the dog and through the dog. no one speaks to one another anymore.

or maybe no one sees the need to.

same old brand new, welcome, my funny feeling.

2010-11-21T03:16:00.001+08:00

its been such a long time since i felt this. and it makes me shudder and weak in my knees while i melt away. its such an odd sensation, but i think i can get used to feeling like this(:

A1 songs. and how they are so wonderful.

----------------------edited---------------------
Just realised how bad this picture is as a representation. isn't the stomach only supposed to be on the left side of the body? how did all the butterflies escape?!

then what?

2010-11-20T02:53:00.000+08:00

what if the only person you could talk to in the world can't talk to you?

what can you do then?

2010-11-19T01:39:00.000+08:00

people who don't know anything should just SHUT THE F*CK UP.

get it? zip your mouth, and do something right, for once.

your obvious inability to do your job well is not appreciated, so just save yourself some dignity, stop treating the whole world like criminals and control your urge to teach everyone you deem wrong a lesson. maybe then you'll actually earn the respect of the rank you've got.

"these are dark times"

2010-11-18T03:00:00.000+08:00

the pictures were too dark, we couldn't be seen): oh well, learnt my lesson, we shall have flash handy next time(: anyways, there were some pictures that i particularly liked. And here's one.

we danced <3

3

2010-11-17T01:00:00.000+08:00

it can be a bit of a problem when its overwhelming like that. such is the arrogance of our assignments. bullies.

just three more of those towering stuffs and i'll be quite done for this semester. ARGH. this is the most disgusting semester thus far.

i vaguely recall that i enjoyed school in the past.